WEIRD DREAM 003

READ AT YOUR OWN RISK!!! TOTAL WEIRDNESS AHEAD!!!

Damn, I’ve been having weird dreams lately. First thing weird about this dream was that I’m not human. I seem to be some sort of shaman or something. Uh, well we were (meaning, my mum, my aunts, and I) were staying at a relative’s place. I don’t know who the relative was and well, he lived in this really old house. The kind where poor people lived, the roofs ware made of zinc and it was really hot there. The bathroom was really small.

Another weird thing with this dream was that my cousin was also on this trip with our grandmother (who had just passed away weeks ago). Damn, why did I always dream of my grandmother who was still alive in all my dreams? The thought that she was already gone didn’t seem to register itself in my mind when I saw her in my dreams. It was total weirdness.

About this relative of mine who I hadn’t even know who he was. Well. He seemed to be a doctor. O.o More weirdness here. Well, he had a wife who was a Japanese woman. I didn’t really talk to his wife at all throughout the whole dream.

So, I was there staying at the house and visiting places from time to time. Uh, temples. O.o How the heck did I even want to visit temples? I was so out-of-character here. I remembered there were two guys in this dream who were, shall I say ‘not-good’ people. They had this evil spell that they’d cast on people. They blew smoke from a pipe towards people, and people would just shrink and disappear. Then these evil guys captured the people in their bottles.

They tried the spell on me but it didn’t work because I seemed to have some sort of protection around me. The protection repelled everything that tried to harm me and it was cast upon me by my beloved Asakura Hao-sama! (Hey, it was just a dream! I dunno why he ended up in here, but was so glad that he did.)

I warned that two guys to not get near me and well they did, though they had other plans, involving my cousin. They asked her to dispel whatever protection spell cast on me and she complied. I was so mad at her for that and wanted to get even with her.

At that time, she was summoning water spirits by the river for whatever reason as I hid in the water. Gosh, the water was really dark and deep and I did not know what lurked in it still I hid in the water. I still remembered her comical look when the spirits just ignored her and she was like, ‘Damn it! I command you to comply! Now come with me!’ And so, two of the water spirits emerged and followed her. I pretended to be one as I too followed her. Just as her back was turned against me, I jumped out of the water, screaming curses in Japanese and attacked her.

Since when did I own a sword? O.o I seriously don’t know, but I did try to stab her with it. Well, she ran (duh! Who wouldn’t?) and both of us ended up at my relative-whom-I-Don’t-Know’s house. I still remembered kicking open the door while screaming in Japanese and that relative of mine’s wife seemed to laugh. Finally I caught my cousin in the house just sitting there.

She revealed that she needed to search for a lost girl’s soul who had just passed away by the river. She’d even showed me the newspaper cutting. O.o Though I really don’t get it, why the hell did she stripped me off my protection spell? Hmm…probably because the two guys there told her that they could do something if she were to help them, I think?

“Oooo” I said to here and told her I would help her out. .__. Okay, I was so out-of-character in this dream. I was supposed to be EVIL! So, why the hell did I agree to help her out? Anyway I suggested that she find Lyserg (A dowser from the anime ‘Shaman King’) to help her out, and she was like, “Oh yea!” and asked me to contact him. I rolled my eyes and told her that I was on bad terms with Lyserg (because my beloved Hao-sama had killed Lyserg’s family years ago and I was now dating Hao-sama, so it was obvious that Lyserg wouldn’t like me)

My cousin was like, “Oh, right…” = =" Was it me or was she kinda stupid in this dream of mine? XD eek. So anyway, I didn’t really know what happened afterwards, but then I was told to go to a cemetery to search for the girl’s soul.

I was left with those two aforesaid bad guys to search for the girl. Where the hell was my cousin?! O.o It was midnight and those two guys were cowards, they pushed me pass the gates of the cemetery then they cabut (as in, run away) So I was left to search on my own. The cemetery itself looked something like the ‘Stay Alive’ movie’s cemetery, with a tower (which was now an apartment?! O.o) in the middle of it.

As you know cemeteries, they are haunted. The moment I stepped into the cemetery, I noticed that there were already two ghosts waiting for me. My, they were really fast! They tried to attack me with guns. Yes, guns. .__. They seemed to be mafias/gangsters or something. Eek, so I dodged the bullets (that I don’t usually have to dodge if I were to have that protective layer around me. = =" I really have to thank my cousin for that!)

I ran into the apartment in the middle of the cemetery and it was surprisingly bright. Ghosts lived there and they were just like us – watching TV and all that. XD I know, WEIRD dream, duh! I ran into one of the houses there and hid myself. And I found the little girl there! That lost girl’s ghost sitting in front of the television with other ghosts. It seemed really like a family.

I tried to take the girl away, telling her that her parents were waiting back home, but then another ghost rose off his seat and tried to strangle me. That ghost told me to go away and not bother to take his daughter away from him and then he threw me off the railing. I landed on my foot thanks to my shamanic powers.

I said, “Screw it! I’m never ever going to do a job like that again!” (That sounded so much more like me. Lol. XD) and then I left the place.

Homophobia in Malaysia

It's really common that it was used as a political tool in Malaysia. Lol, I know my point isn't really new or whatever, but I just wanted to talk a little about this phenomenon.

In Malaysia, it's ILLEGAL to be homosexual - you could get jailed. ._. Maybe that's what caused all this homophobia, the people are just not educated to accept homosexuals. Like in school, kids (especially boys) would call friends 'Gay!' and the likes as if it were a negative term. Even parents here teach their children not to be gay/lesbian because they say it is disgusting.

Recently I made researches about homosexuals in Malaysia and found that the law is really against the LGBT society here. It’s frustrating, really. The government seems to treat homosexuality as a disease and shun homosexuals their rights. Gosh, and you know? Any content of homosexuality in movies are censored, and the country even banned homosexual movies because they said that it has a bad influence to the society. (Lol, but anyone could get their hands on a couple of movies such as Brokeback Mountain, Queer as Folk, The L Word and the likes using the internet!)

I mean, come on! The people would get curious about movies like this and they’ll download or buy pirated DVDs here (Uh…though it’s illegal but, who cares?)

People cringe if you talk about homosexual publicly (which I often do) and even though some of my friends talk along with me, some just avoid the topic or said something along the lines of “That’s gross!”

Humans tend to shun away from what they do not understand. They will say that it is EVIL just because they don’t understand it.

The society here would lose respect for you if they find out that you are a gay/lesbian. That may be why rarely any gay/lesbian people would want to come out of the closet. Well, who would want to come out of the closet if you would get discriminated by the society and even get legal charges against you? Hmm…it’s better to play safe and act straight, no?

I must say it’s still too early to consider gay marriage in such a conservative country, but lifting the ‘homosexual as a crime’ rule out of the book might be a good start, no? Well, like Najib had said – something about One Malaysia or something. @.@ Gosh, I ain’t that good with politics, we should NOT shun out the minority in this country.

Damn! It’s a democratic country here!

电灯炮的自述

LOL, I know the title is in chinese but I ain't gonna write my blog in chinese cuz I'm simple not equipped with enough vocab to do so. XD Err...about the title, it's about my day as a 'lightbulb' ._. at my parents' (my mum and my current dad) anniversary. I begged them to let me go with them to Feringghi Grill restaurant at the Rasa Sayang Hotel. XD Duh, I HAD TO GO! How could I miss such a delightful fine-dining experience?!!

Hmm...let's say, I'll let the photos here explain everything, cuz they say a picture could paint a thousand words. (though I would still write a little something here and there in case anyone get confuse)


This is merely the restroom of the hotel which I took a picture of. It was quite nice (I know some of you might have seen nicer restrooms, but whatever~)


The table when I first set eyes on it. My current-dad had reserved it for Special occasion which is for my parents' anniversary =p




The Menu~


Something complimentary from the chef. It's a tiny portion of fish. .__.



Here's the Bread dip. The sauce is a bit spicy but overall pretty nice. ^^ It's some tomato thingy un~


My order for the Pizatte. RM27~



Sorbet before we start our main course dinner. FOC~


The main course I ordered. Tenderloin. It's merely Australian grain-fed beef. RM125~


Yum! the chocolate cake. I think it's specially made for this occasion! The waiters and the manager came out and shook hands with us. They were supposed to congratulate my parents but they too shook hands with me too. Lol. Price of cake is unknown to me~


The Tea set. Price unknown to me~


There, the final! White and black chocolates! Price unknown to me~


My current-dad told me that I spent the most compared to my parents (Who were the ones actually celebrating THEIR anniversary XD) which is RM188.69. O.o Uh~ but the food is real good, so the price doesn't matter right? XD Oh~ The total spent is RM497.00 but we have a RM100 coupon so we only pay about RM397++ along with the RM20 tips. T_T The service charge is already RM40 but still my dad paid for the tips.

5 Things I HATE

5 things I hate. Like the saying goes, “There are many things that I hate, and very few that I like” – Uchiha Sasuke. = =” Okay…why did I remember this phrase even though I dislike that character!!! Ugh…but whatever.


5th – NOT being told about my EVILNESS
Argh…this one is a real pain! Why doesn’t anyone acknowledge my EVILNESS?!!! I mean, I am EVIL! I did things that are really unforgivable which I do not want to write here…so, that makes me EVIL!

BEHOLD MY EVILNESS!!!

4th – Cowardice
Well, cowardice is really a b*tch! I mean, come on! Why care about the consequences? Just say what you like and do what you do, why freaking think of the consequences before you do anything? Life is so gonna be DULL if you always do that. Well, sometimes I do act cowardly (err…I’m still human) but I don’t really tolerate such act.

I confessed to the person I love and got rejected, still I DARE to take the risk. I didn’t estimate my distance between cars before I park my car (which made me knock into some cars from time to time) XD lol, that’s reckless, I know, but still, I DARE to do that. Ahaha, so, cowardice comes in the 6th of my 5-things-I-hate list. =p

3th – Religion
To put it frankly, I DON’T BELIEVE in the existence of GOD. It doesn’t make any sense to me. I would rather believe that our existence is merely a mirage and nothing more. I absolutely LOATHED it when people keep telling me things like, “God says so” and the likes. It is really annoying. Gaah…I still remembered the debate with the church priest years ago. Hu ~ I remembered I went there with two friends for that stay at Penang Hill. ._. “Um…why doesn’t the bible record anything about dinosaurs?”

You CAN’T DENY the fact that we humans were the ones to write the bibles, the Quran and the likes, so it’s absolutely NORMAL to add in what the humans at that time think was right or not. Ugh…go watch Zeitgeist, the movie to get more details about what I’m saying.



Besides WAR rages due to the existence of religion, humans want to protect what they deem is right so they fought against the religion that they see as a threat to their own religion. Don’t believe me? Then explain the Crusade war.

2nd – Homophobes
One of the things that I CANNOT tolerate is homophobes! It’s really a childish thinking to say that, “Oh no, two guys (or girls) cannot fall in love with each other. It’s not natural.” Oh, please spare me the religious talk. Not natural? Ahaha, did ya know that some animals practice homosexuality? Eg, monkeys, birds, dolphins…etc. Zoologists are discovering that homosexual and bisexual activity is not unknown within the animal kingdom.

The natural existence of homosexuality in non-human animals is considered controversial by conservative religious groups who oppose LGBT (Lesbian, Gays, Bisexual and Transexual) social movements because these findings seem to point to the natural occurrence of homosexuality in humans. It also counters the 'peccatum contra naturam' ('sin against nature')

I don’t get why some straight people cringe at the thought of homosexuality and some even make fun of it. Homosexual acts are even banned in some countries. What happened to human rights?! We are FREE to live our lifestyle as long as it doesn’t affect others. No one is hurt physically when someone else is gay right? It’s not like we are killing anyone when we are just being ourselves.

1st My Biological dad
._. Don’t really wanna talk about this one, cuz I couldn’t put it into words about how much I HATE him.

SasoDei

For people who do not know what's a SasoDei, it's actually a pairing from Naruto Shippuuden- SasoriXDeidara (Note: It's just a pairing made up by fans. You can call it a slash pairing) This is my OTP (One-True-Pairing) and it's a yaoi pairing. I absolutely ADORE this pairing because there's just so much to it.

Well, the SasoDei fandom/relationship revolves around two bishonens -Sasori as the Seme and Deidara as the Uke. Err...I could accept DeiSaso too though, but I prefer SasoDei more. Lol. Anyway, Sasori is a really cute looking redhead and he is a puppet! Yes, a puppet! If you are wondering why, go watch Naruto Shippudden then. But I'll summarize it anyway, Sasori wasn't a puppet when he was born, he just transformed himself into a puppet somehow. As for Deidara, he's a really sexy blond artist, with extra mouths on both his palms and one on his chest. Hmm...he molds clay with them and detonates his creations. So, simply put that, Deidara is a sculptor and also a bomber. Both Sasori and Deidara are artists, yet both of them have very different views on art.

Sasori views art as everlasting while Deidara views art as fleeting beauty. I guess that's what attracts me to adore this couple so much. This couple just ring "PERFECT MATCH" in a sense of opposite attracts. They are so meant to be with each other! So, don't waste your time trying to change my mind on that!

Anyway, I've contributed to the fandom of this pairing by making quite a number of AMVs with the pairing and has written four fanfictions for this couple, including an unfinished fanfic (Magic City) and an M-rated fanfic (Stars). XD This couple is just so beautiful in it's own way and I admit to being a pervert to have written an M-rated fanfic. Lol.

"Sasori is a puppet without strings and Deidara is a human with them." - Taken from the "ABCs of SasoDei" on ff.net written by Maelza. You know what's the most fun about reading fanfictions? Well, you get to see your favourite characters act in different situations. I really love the way some authors on FF.net describe the SasoDei relationship. The authors would make them argue on the point-of-view on art. Then I remembered one of the fanfics I read ended with Deidara saying something sweet to Sasori like, "Art is a blast, but our love is eternal." (Hm...can't really recall much, this might have been taken from a SasoDei wallpaper I found, but whatever XD)

In conclusion, SasoDei ROCKS!!!

Songs that remind me of SasoDei:

~Wherever you Will Go by The Calling
.Sasori: If I could, then I would, I'll go wherever you will go...♫

~Time of Dying by Three Days Grace
.Sasori: I will not die, when you're beside me...♫

~It's All Coming back to me by Celine Dion
.Deidara: There were those empty threats and hollow lies, and whenever you tried to hurt me, I just hurt you even worse and so much deeper...But when you touch me like this and you hold me like that, I just have to admit, that it's all coming back to me♫

~Hero by Enrique Iglesias
. Sasori: I can be your hero, baby. I can kiss away the pain, I will stand by you FOREVER...♫

~Just Dance by Lady Gaga
.Deidara: ...control your poison babe. Roses with thorns they say...♫

~Gotta be Somebody by Nickelback
.Sasori: ...the moment when we´re meeting will play out like a scene straight off the silver screen. So I`ll be holdin’ my breath, right up to the end. Until that moment when I find the one that I'll spend FOREVER with... ♫

WEIRD DREAM 002

I was having another WEIRD dream again. Gosh…I really dream a lot lately. Well, this time it’s about…weird relationships? Err…lemme tell you the story from the start to the end, so that you could understand it better. WARNING! This post contains TOTAL WEIRDNESS AND FORBIDDEN RELATIONSHIP!!!

Okay, so I was on my way back from school (Which is oddly…still CDK – my old school) after picking up some stuff which I had left there. It was nighttime and I dunno why I didn’t drive my car. I passed by row and rows of houses which I had not seen in my life before (well, it’s a dream, you should expect everything to be different)

I kinda freaked out cuz it was so quiet and the streetlamps aren’t doing any good either cuz they were kinda eerie when they hit the street, casting a shade of orange. Then, I heard an ice-cream cart approaching (O.o selling ice-creams at this hour?! TOTAL WEIRDNESS) I quickly approached the ice-cream seller and asked if I could hitch a ride home T.T cuz it was dark and all that and my house is quite far away ~ O.o I didn’t know how I suddenly became so bold.

So, the ice-cream seller agreed to help me. Then we sat down and he began to tell his tale. (o.O Uh…more weirdness here, but the main story came from this tale he told) He told me he had a son who disappeared years ago. His son had this special ability which he used to break stones without even touching them and he could do other kinds of stuff which normal people couldn’t do. That ice-cream seller was proud of his son, sending him for reality shows and all that.

This ice-cream seller had a wife who was his son’s stepmother (but she didn’t really play a part in this whole tale) The ice-cream seller was quite a successful business person (that was BEFORE he turned to ice-cream selling XD) and he worked quite a lot and rarely had the chance to go home. He sent his son to boarding school and had his son learnt French and all the other stuff. His son was quite young when he was sent to boarding school, and he constantly wrote to his father. He told his father about stuff and all that and even asked if his father would resign his job and become his teacher in school, he noted that his French teacher sucked and it would be so cool if his dad were to be a teacher.

The ice-cream seller merely laughed that off as a joke. He visited his son once in a while. When his son started to grow up, the ice-cream seller realized that his son was gay. How could he not notice? (There were hints here and there, so duh~) His son told him he was in love with a guy, but he didn’t specify who he was in love with.

The ice-cream seller felt angry/sad/whatever feelings he should feel, and he sent his son for constant therapy and religious studies. He kinda hurt his son’s emotions, which was why his son left him – running away and never wanted to see that ice-cream seller again. The ice-cream seller blamed his wife for that (even though she did nothing and it was the ice-cream seller’s fault!)

The ice-cream seller ended his tale noting that his wife had left him and he left his job because he wanted to settle down with his peaceful life.

I who was listening to the tale then asked him, “So what happened in the end? Did you know who your son liked?”

The ice-cream seller then said, “Yes, he left me a letter the night he left. It was actually me. Can you imagine that? It was forbidden!” Then, the ice-cream seller pulled out an invitation card and continued, “But I’m glad he was over me.” It was a wedding invitation from his son.

I remembered being present at the wedding and saw that the ice-cream seller’s song was married off to another man and…that was the end of the dream.

YAOI

You might ask why I am so obsessed with Yaoi. Well, there’s isn’t any real explanation to liking something, no? All I could tell you is that YAOI rocks! I mean, come on! You get to see two cute guys (anime guys) kissing each other (and maybe more XD)

It always make me go ‘aww~’. Yaoi is really irresistible! I can’t help but fall in love with it. There are various yaoi series that I ADORE! One of them is Junjou Romantica (Pure Romance). This is a really sweet one if you are a beginner to yaoi is (I didn’t wanna scare you off with some more graphic ones *coughs) Lol, though, do watch the anime and not the manga of Junjou Romantica cuz it’s less… graphic? XD They had censored a lot of the parts in the anime, but knowing manga, they don’t usually censor.

UsagiXMisaki

The main theme of Junjou Romantica is LOVE! You get to see three pairings in this series. Well, I loved the first pairing most, the 2^nd one’s pretty sweet too. The first one is about a high school student – Misaki who went for tuition at his brother’s friend’s house – Usami Akihiko (Usagi). Misaki wanted to go into a certain University but due to his results, he can’t. Usagi on the other hand was a novelist and he’s smart and all that (he was secretly in love with Misaki’s elder brother, which explains why he willingly tutored Misaki) Then, things happened and well, Misaki and Usagi got together. Misaki even lived together with Usagi because Misaki’s brother moved to Osaka or something and Misaki had to remain in Tokyo to go to university.

I’m tired to talk about the 2^nd and 3^rd pairing. But the 2^nd pairing is roughly about a high school teacher and a medic student. As for the 3^rd pairing, it’s also about a high school teacher who dated his ex-wife’s brother. XD

- MORE GRAPHIC YAOI!!! -

Well, my favourite yaoi series is from Yamane Ayano. It’s really an awesome series! XD Though there is lots, and I mean LOTS of sex-scenes in it. ._. Okay, I admit that I’m a pervert, but whatever~

The title of the manga is The ViewFinder Series. I’ve read it of some website and I love the plot. XD The story revolves around the Chinese Mafia and the Japanese one. (Hmm…couldn’t really recall much…)

My favourite character in this series has to be Liu FeiLong – he’s the head of the BaiShe (white snake) gang in Hong Kong. He’s the antagonist of this series, but who cares?! XD So yea, he went and kidnapped Takaba blah~blah…

The story did not start of like that though. The story started off with Takaba Akihito who was a freelance photographer who got in the way of Asami (A middleman of the Japanese underworld). He was caught and punished by Asami. The ‘punishment’ was not something I should write here in my strictly PG-13 blog. XD So duh ~ I LOVE the first title for the first volume of the manga – You are my Love Prize.

Then the story gets complicated with the Chinese Mafia coming in and all that. There seemed to be something going on between the head of the BaiShe and Asami. So, Takaba was kidnapped and brought back to Hong Kong… If you are somehow interested in this series, I’ll have to WARN YOU THAT IT’S NOT FOR THE FAINT HEART!!!
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Liu FeiLong

Well, there are still a lot of Yaoi series out there, such as Yami no Matsuei (It’s not bad. The characters are hot XD) then we have Kireipapa (It is cute XD), Ikoku Irokoi Romantan (This one’s also by Yamane Ayano. Though I had only watched the anime and not the manga. XD So, I dunno how graphic is the manga), Winter Cicada (It is a sad one. T.T)…etc.
Winter Cicada

Then there are the SLASH-Pairings from other animes (which are not yaoi. *coughs*) but I’ll leave it for the next post. ^^